The love of my life

What can I say about him well he came into my life on August 4 2008 and he has been in my life since. He always knows how to make me laugh or push me to my limit but I always tend to forget everything im mad about when I see his picture or when he talks to me. These last few years that we known each other have been the best years of my life I never really knew I could fall in love again after I lost my first love in 7th grade I thought he was just going to be a friend that was there to help me get through that loss but he became more then that and I cant picture my life without him. The whole story about my first love starts the 3rd week of school I saw this guy that was new to the school and he was in my english and science classes he sat next to me in english class and we started to get to know each other there but later on we started to talk more when we were in mrs garcia's class doing a test for science or a project for english but from then we started to get really close to the point where we both wanted to ask each other out but didnt have the courage to do one day this girl named sky came into our science class and he was all flirty with her and I got so mad and thats where I found out my jealously side that I never knew I had and he knew I was jealous because when he wanted to work with me on a project we had together in science I wouldnt talk to him and he was always trying to impress me by doing stupid stuff. One day I found out from my sister that him and his family were moving on February 4th and I got all depressed and didnt want to wrap my head around the idea that he was leaving me for good. About a week before he was suppose to leave my mom sister my friend and I went to reno for a doctors appointment my mom had and we stayed the night at a hotel because of the bad weather and when we got back for school the day after we got back from reno he wasnt there and I was getting worried that he was sick or something but when I asked mrs garcia she told him that he moved and I felt like my world just had fallen apart and I kept myself together until I got on the bus and when I was on the bus I saw him for the last time and I couldnt hold the tears in and I was crying all the way home when I got home I made the excuse up that I had to clean my room so I went to my room and just sat there and cried I felt like I died inside and I didnt want to live anymore. But a few months later I saw him again at the park for the cinco de mayo celebration and I was about to faint when I saw him but I knew that it was the last time I was ever going to see him. I gave up on love after him but when I met Diego I knew that he was going to help me put all the pieces of my broken heart back together and until now I know that Luis is still a part of my past and Diego is my present and I wouldnt change it for the world. He brought the meaning of love back into my life and ever since then he has been the only one I want to be with for the rest of my life. I love you Diego forever ♥

The summer of new beginnings

Well what can I say about this summer well my summer before I head off to college has been a emotional rollercoaster with everything that has been going on in my life and starting college soon also has me this way because its not easy to realize your not a little kid in a candy shop your finally an adult with responsibilities and you have to start depending on yourself not just your parents for everything thats the big lesson life gives you dont take it for granted. My ex Diego confessed to me that he still does have feelings for me and he wants to start a family with me but Im not completely sure if I still want to be that insecure little girl I was when he met me these last few years that we known each other everything about me has changed for the better I have a new perceptive in life and I know I shouldnt take it for granted.
Diego always has been part of my life and to see him tell me that he still loves me means that the future does want us together even if we do decide to go our separate ways it doesnt mean that he will be a thing in the past he will always be in my heart from the moment he said I love you.

Te amo Diego Alonso
Siempre vas a estar en
mi corazon

Cloudy Monday

Well what can I say about today well today the weather decided to change and I hope it doesnt snow because tomorrow is an important day for me and if it snows it will be ruined completely anyways today has been a month since I took a test that I failed and dont want to mention right now about and I still feel bad about it I know I could of done better but I was too nervous and my nerves got the best of me I hope that tomorrow is a good day for me and this time I will do better on that test.

Also today has been a month since it was valentines day and I regret letting go of someone special that I had close but never really understand that feeling until after he left and hes still part of my life but its still hurts to see him and keep everything bottled up and pretend that everythings fine between us I know he still has feelings for me because of the distance we cant be together like we deserve but we just have to wait and let the future take its course and if it wants us together then its what it wants
The person who I regret letting go he has a amazing personality a good sense of humor he knows how to make me laugh at every possible moment even if were just talking about stupid things he came into my life on august 4th 2008 and has been in my heart ever since and I wish I could put everything that happened in the past but it gets harder each minute and everything comes back and it hurts me even more knowing that he was and is still part of my life.
Diego is the only person that showed me the real meaning of true love and not having him trust me its heartbreaking because hes the one who broke that promise in the first place and tried to blame me for it but he knew it wasnt going to be easy for me to accept that and when we broke up it seem that my whole world came crashing down before my eyes and it was hard for me to see him go and the day after we broke up we talked it out and agreed to become friends but it doesn’t feel the same being friends then being together but he still tried to make me laugh knowing that wouldn’t help ease the pain away
The day we broke up my dad wasn’t there to make everything better and when he called I couldn’t resist and I started to cry and he told me to why I was crying and I couldn’t tell him why I was crying I just told him I was crying because I missed him and it felt like an eternity not seeing him and then fighting with him and he told me something that I will never forget That even tho hes not there physically he will always be there mentally and I don’t know what I will do without my dad hes my role model and it wont be the same if I leave for college I would miss him a lot. My family is everything to me they know how to comfort me whenever Im feeling down and we always have our fights but at the end of the day we still love each other

tiring friday

Well what I say about this wonderful day not much because the person I wanted to see today isn't here because he decided to skip school without giving me a reason and I'm super pissed about that anyways well u can't wait for the weekend to start because this week has been pretty tiring because of stupid proficiencies and it tired me out a lot well I'm going to go see you next time P.s there's a guy that has my heart and I don't want him to ever let go of it and he knows that TE AMO DIEGO ABARCA

alone

All alone in a room
With a heart broken 

In 2 cant seem to
Replace you its
Now a distant Memory when I last saw you
And it still hurts
Seeing you gone
But you will Always be
In my heart Knowing your
Part of me
TE AMO LUZ NAVA 9/5/37-1/11/11