:(

Well it's been a few days since Diego texted me to wish me a merry Christmas and that he desactived his Facebook but he has managed to crushed me once again because he knows how I feel about him and I hate feeling like shit everytime we talk because I know deep down he still loves me and he wants a future with me but after all these years he hasn't made the approach to make our friendship flourish more then what it is then its time for me move on and find my happiness somewhere else and finally close this chapter of our lives for good. But how do I make my heart fully understand that he has managed to move on without me and I still can't move on without him?
Diego Alonso Abarca why did you come into my life if you never intended to stay like I hope you would? But what I learned from this experience with us is that I managed to move on from my crush I had on Luis back in 7th grade and that he was always part of my past and you were my future but I guess I was wrong in thinking that you were my future if you never intended to stay in the first place.
I love you Diego with all my life but you never appreciated my love for you like I did with yours. You managed to fucked up my life with jealously,anger,resentment toward love but I know I can say that I hate you but when we talk I know that's not true so I now know that if I need to get rid of this guilt that you made me feel when we broke up is that I need to stop thinking about the past and focus on the present without you!
Good luck with your life Diego and if you want me back in your life then you need to show me that we do belong together.

My beautiful Christmas <3

Well something unexpected happened to me last night while I was eating dinner with my family. my ex Diego texted me wishing me a merry christmas it felt weird talking to him again through text message because its been over a year since we last texted each other but it was good to hear from him again it gives me safety knowing that Im still on his mind and he hasnt forgotten about me. Now I feel like shit because he desactived his facebook and I feel like he did it because I commented on his profile picture. I dont know when its going to stop hurting everything he does and doesnt do. 4 years ago I was hurt alot but I managed to mature alot also because I was still a little girl that believed anything everyone told her and now I say fuck it I dont care if they like me or not I will do the fuck i want to do and thats how I feel everytime I talk to diego. I say Im strong but when he talks to me I melt inside and feel useless and powerless because he has total control of me and my true feelings for him.
Well I hope I can get rid of these feelings so I dont feel disappointed or hurt everytime I talk to him

Solo Por Amor by Samo

No se porque cruzaste en mi camino
Una sorpresa nos tenia el destino
Ser delincuentes por amor
Esto que siento no es coincidencia
Te hiciste parte de mi existencia

Cerrar los ojos no es soñar despiertos
Como dos polos eran nuestros cuerpos
Unidos por la pasión
Guarde en secreto todo sentimiento
Pero el silencio a veces tiene un precio

Eres tu y soy yo
El rostro de un amor prohibido
Eres tu y soy yo
Amándonos junto al peligro
No me importa lo que venga yo estaré contigo
Eres tu

Nunca pensé perderme en un desierto
Viviendo atado a tu sentimientos
Cediendo de tu corazón
La vida siempre buscara un culpable
Pero el amor que siento es indomable

Eres tu y soy yo
El rostro de un amor prohibido
Eres tu y soy yo
Amándonos junto al peligro
No me importa lo que venga yo estaré contigo

Aun que cueste
Aun que duela
Junto a ti no me importa lo que venga
Yo me ire contigo
Hasta que el destino quiera
Eres tu
(Y soy yo)
Eres tu
Oh no

Eres tu y soy yo
El rostro de un amor prohibido
Eres tu y soy yo
Amándonos junto al peligro
No me importa lo que venga
Yo estaré contigo

Rival by Romeo Santos

Un minuto de silencio es lo que estoy pidiendo,
un minuto de tu tiempo no estaría de mas
para que hoy te enteres que mi alma
Ya no esta muriendo te equivocaste
en lo absoluto ni intentes en regresar



Mario domn

Prefiero vivir mil años sin ti
que una eternidad pasándola sin ti

Romeo santos
Fuiste el amor de mi vida

Mario domn
y hablándote claro no te voy a mentir
me da lo mismo lo que puedas sentir

Romeo santos
Esto es una tormenta y continuara

Mario domn
Es como ir hundiéndose en el mar

Romeo santos
Seria un poco absurdo un final pactar

Mario donm
Porque seguir haciendo daño

Romeo santos
Vivir así a tu lado no es normal

Mario domn
Yo busco paz y tú eres tempestad

Romeo santos
Prefiero darme por vencido y terminar
No quiero ser más tu rival.

Mario domn
Han pasado muchos años y yo resistiendo
hasta que borre el sabor de la felicidad
me fuiste convirtiendo en tu enemigo
siendo la culpable y me perdí
en tu laberinto de que hoy quiero escapar.
Prefiero vivir mil años sin ti
que una eternidad pasándola sin ti

Mario domn
Fuiste el amor de mi vida

Romeo santos
y hablándote claro no te voy a mentir
me da lo mismo lo que puedas sentir

Romeo santos
Esto es una tormenta y continuara

Mario domn
Es como ir hundiéndose en el mar

Romeo santos
Seria un poco absurdo un final pactar

Mario donm
Porque seguir haciendo daño

Romeo santos
Vivir así a tu lado no es normal

Mario domn
Yo busco paz y tú eres tempestad

Romeo santos
Prefiero darme por vencido y terminar
No quiero ser más tu rival.
No quiero ser más tu rival
No quiero ser más tu rival

Romeo santos
Esto es una tormenta y continuara

Mario domn
Es como ir hundiéndose en el mar

Romeo santos
Seria un poco absurdo un final pactar

Mario donm
Porque seguir haciendo daño

Romeo santos
Vivir así a tu lado no es normal

Mario domn
Yo busco paz y tú eres tempestad

Romeo santos
Prefiero darme por vencido y terminar
No quiero ser más tu rival,
no quiero ser más tu rival
No quiero ser más tu rival.
Ya no quiero ser tu rival Diego

New year new memories <3

Well were in the second month of the new year and it's been good so far haven't had problems with my babe's ex girlfriend and I hope I don't anytime soon well I decided that this year I'm going to do a lot of changes in my life and I'm not going back to the little girl I was back when I met my ex for the first time it's taken me a while to get over our breakup but I managed to mature alot after we broke up but I know it's still going to take some time for me to find that same love I have for Diego with someone else all I know is that I need more patience to get through life knowing that maybe Diego and I don't have a future together anymore

My baby and my brothers in law

This is my baby Diego with his friends celebrating the new year <3

Pepe Aguilar - Ni Contigo, Ni Sin Ti

My babe and my future father in law

This is a picture of my future father in law and my babe at his birthday party

The reason I have to live ♥

Well this is the love of my life his name is Diego Alonso Abarca and he's always been there for me at the worst times but I know that somewhere deep in his heart he still cares about me and wants to be with me and I love him so much

I love you <3

Well what can I say a few days ago it was my ex Diego's birthday and I wished him a happy birthday and he was happy that I wished him one but it still hurts to see him get more distant with me but I understand that he wants to live his life with someone else and I'm not going to interfere with his dream if he still wants to be with me then he should let me know and not let myself get my hopes up because I always end up getting hurt but I know I have to move on but it's hard to forget the love of your life and all the moments you lived with that person .
I love you so much Diego <3 always and forever