Heartbroken in many pieces

Well what can I say about this wonderful cold night well I've been thinking a lot about my ex Diego and all the moments we had together and it makes it harder for me to forgive and forget that ever happened and I try to move on each day and i know it happened 5 years ago but it still hurts knowing that he could've found his true love somewhere else and I'm just here trying to keep everything bottled up and trying to let him go.

On the other hand my crush Anthoney found a new fucking way to torture me and it hurt me to see him with his new girlfriend on Instagram couldn't he just keep me uninformed and pretend everything is good between us and I hate him for that but how can I tell my heart to stay mad and forget everything and just move on? And let me be happy with someone who treats me for i am and not for my looks like he was doing which in fact I'm still mad at him for